its all about me.

hello.. few months since my last update.


so im a doctor now. erk.
what i do for living? saving life? basically im more like a clerk. i do reviews. i traced results.
sometimes i tried to save lives. sometimes i get scolded for no reasons. sometimes i messed things up. sometimes life gets so busy that i almost forget that im alive. but so far im contented with my life. im grateful for what i have now.

few things happened.

ME? i gained weight. and im not loosing any. i cant fit into my old jeans/ tshirts / baju kurung. i need to buy all new. with bigger sizes. this is so frustrating. but i enjoy eating anywayy. ill be in a bad mood when im hungry.

me, before.

ME, NOW..

see my cheeks?! it gets more cheeky!

my heart???! it gets bigger. stronger and tougher. SCOLD me. SCREAM at me. HARSH WORDS are nothing. you cant crumble my heart. it crumbled before and i fixed it. now it wayy more stronger. like luffy's armament haki. i dont what you sayy. i do what i have to do.
sometimes i get bullied. i just cant sayy NO. im still trying to overcome this.

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seems like ive decided to stayy with the moon and stop counting the stars.
after so many years of his hardwork of getting me understand his feelings. i accepted it.
we planned to get married. but not anytime soon. still got few stuffs to settle before ending our "single fighter" life.

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my girlfriend? - Bulla. she's getting married soon. she found her soulmate in her OnG posting. she's a lot more cheezier than i could've ever imagine. fuhh. when a girl in love. it really a mess you know. but his fiancee seems like a good guy. i hope he can take care of her. im looking foward for her wedding dayy. in march. I love you bulla.

my old crush?! old story. he's married. and live happily ever after. thats a common ending for a love story right? haha. (this is really an old story, eventhough most of the early posts of this blog were about him. ) . no more. it ended few years back. no photos of them with me.






subuh already. i want to continue writing. but thats it for now. :D


mood :: awesome!!

music :: nanana


~lysergdiethel®~

wake up.!

17.10p.m :: 





tell me., how did you acquire those attitude?!
wake up.!! the world is too cruel for you to be ignorance.






mood ::
music ::


 ~lysergdiethel®~

everything should've been over.

07.56a.m 

Too much of anything can make you sick, Even the good can

be a curse (curse), Makes it hard to know which road to 

go down, Knowing too much can get you hurt, Is it better,  

is it worse?, Are we sitting in reverse?, It's just like 

we're going backwards, I know where I want this to go,  

Driving fast but let's go slow, What I don't wanna do is 

crash, no! 

one thing keeps running in my head. don't be a robot. doing things in life only for your dunya satisfaction. are you ready enough for akhirat?! 

DON't FIGHT.

A peace is of the nature of a conquest; for then both parties nobly are subdued, and neither party loser.
'William Shakespear'

“O mankind! There has come to you a direction from your Lord and a healing for the diseases in your hearts,and for those who believe, a guidance and a Mercy” Qur’an- (10:57)

so, actually i've found my cure. i just have to work hard for it. soon this will end. and i'll be living a normal life  like everyone else. and this is what i'm wishing for since 3years.

I'll be there as soon as I can.

But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before.

"unintended"

mood ::
music ::

~lysergdiethel®~

todayy i am sad. i'm not happy.

23.45 p.m

i can't sleep. !

nyampah ngan diri snirik.

smua barang pon asyik jatuh jaa..

lappy turned red. i cant differentiate colours. as if i'm a colour blind. seeing everything in red.

i dropped iphone too. =|

thats whyy having an ipad is not a good idea. soo fragile. i'm not buying your idea. heh. :P i just need another lappy. surely., the immortal one. hahah.

trustedinstaller satu lg buat ssaya tensen. apemende ntah.

well. while i google about this. i've found one nice brilliant solution for a problematic laptop.

lol.

and an advice for a clumsy one too...

yeah.yeah. i got that. but you don't have to be so harsh. whyy i can't have kids? heh.

omaigod. its already twelve?! darn! i suppose to sleep early tonite. i dont want to doze off again on my 2nd dayy regional pain course. ouh.

so thats all from an unhappy girl..

mood :: music :: ~lysergdiethel®~

friday has come to an end. alaaa...

18.09 :: myelin sheaths lacerated. have a rest. :P











don't forget eh?!
jgn lupe bacebuku.. :P


mood ::
music :: ~lysergdiethel®~

high.

05.10a.m :: high.

don't say its easy.

the hardest part is leaving.

don't you wonder whyy.

mood ::
music ::



~lysergdiethel®~

things aren't the way they were before. (in the end. LP)

20.56 p.m :: hello.?!


20sept. yes. today is my birthday. yayyy *clap*clap* . ape yg yayyy.??! haha. today is just an ordinary day. except dat my wall full of birthday wishes. thank you guys. :)  . iye. i'm 20. mostly yg wish birthday mst ckp *smoga cpt mmbesar* . ape.??! ingt newborn ka.?! lol. dah ckp besar dahh nie kott. :)  .

ad 2 org kwn sy terbang mlm nie. hv a safe journey back to where we're suppose to belong. (lol. for the timebeing.) :P . i'm not gonna miss you. but do miss me okayyy.?! heehee. :P . gudluck.!! kalau bosan. text me. buzz me. write me anytime. or you can just call me if you miss my so called high pitch voice. ( u said so. jeez!!)  .

esok UPSR. adik ssaya. sila buat yg terbaik. my prayers are always with you. muahhhhh!!
♥ ♥ 


nak ssangt mkn sotong celup tepung. kat pntai. please!!! =|  . dh blk mesia sbulan lbeh. xmkn2 lg. aihh.




ape lg haa nk ckp. hurm.boring an.?! okayy bye.





 mood :: undefined.
music :: avril - don't tell me.

~lysergdiethel®~

pe.pe.pe.nat.

19.35 p.m ::   xtaw lah saya.

 hari yg penat. ssemua benda yg ak buat ak penat arini. tp ak dah xde dyspnea. BP dah normal kott. tp ak still jugak penat. knape ak penat. padahal ak duduk ja. ak xpegi mane2 pon. xde gerakan extreme. maju beberapa tapak ke toilet. dan beberapa tapak ke dapo sahaja. aaa.penat. ;( [okeotakakygpenattkott. bkn penat bace histo. tppenattdukpk.mnyampah]

hurmmm.,  okay lah. blogging nih bosann la pulak. kawan2 jgn lupe bangun solat subuh oke.  bye~

eh2. jap. thank you. =]

mood :: emm.,
music :: lalala~

  ssory.oke.

~lysergdiethel®~

chocholates, caffeine and cardiac stimulant.

19.42 pm :: jgn gediks minum coffee lg oke. *degil*



ape eh nk tulis. idea dh ilang kott. mane pegi.? vanished tru my expired air kott. [hyperventilate.hyperventilate]
 >.<

smalam ad ttamu. ssuka2. =) . bile ntah last skali ttamu bertudng pink tu mnjejakkan kaki ke sini. ak pon lupe dah. [nmpk sngt dh lm xdtg. heehee] . tadehal la. =) . owh lupe. dpt OREO. !! hehe.hehe.hehe.tq!


SC last.hurm., priceless moments.~ dpt keychain ++papita++ gmbr++doa. tq akak. u're always the best. and u'll always be. love you. <3 [akak idola sy] . akak yg xpenah lupe adik2 dia. ssh/senang. akak yg sporting. akak yg baik. akak yg. yg....akak isi sndiri lah ngan smua sifat2 mahmudah.. akak reti an. ahaa~ ;D

epit --> pasni kalau dh x satu SC ngan ak dah. jgn sombong taw. i know u'll miss me a lot. kan?kan?

Gig + Nas --> dua taon dah satu SC. nnt next year kalau ade jodoh jmpe lg. ssory la smalam xde chipsy [since ak lah pembekal setia chipsy utk korang] . kedai tutup. jumaat. alah tp cheesecake xde gak an? hehe. sib bek.


jimah --> nk ckp ape eh kat kau. kalau jmpe ak nnt tego la .  ;)

asma --> xrisau. satu section.satu kelas. :) . kekalkan ayu anda. jgn lupe mkn ubat.

adib ngan neiza --> alah ousmet kott. nk ckp ape kat korang???kalau rindu ak jemput dtg bilik ye ^^

eza --> bape kali je ntah kau dtg sc. ak pon xtaw nk ckp ape gak. hurm., hopefully bole jd cam dulu kott. xbest ah senyap2 nih. hee~


stadi mcm ape ntah. smpai termenung2.berangan ssiap. hahah. bkn sbb da abes bace. tp bnyk ssngt nk bace xtaw nk bace yg mane. aaa~ T.T (smiley bru nak gune. bkn tandatngan maksudnya mngangis betol2 mngangis.copy ayat kertas.lawak~)


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ouh. haa. lehteidgresyl dah ade gediks box. heehee. knape ntah ade blk. xtaw.xtaw.~ ;D

hurm., pnjg lg kott nak tulis. tp., emm., nak tido kott. esok bangun. 1st thing to avoid --> coffee.
penting. penting.PENTING! . kalau x., i'll hyperventilate for the whole day., which i hate the most.  >.<

okay.bye.~


























mood :: music :: ~lysergdiethel®~

abang saya baik.

20.22 p.m :: snickers.

rupenye. ak xtny pon abg ku sorang ni jepun cmne sejak dia berangkat bln 3 lepas. hahah.


kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:56:29): oit ena
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:56:32): min.
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:56:40): ape khaba
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:56:44): sehat
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:56:53): jepun best?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:01): napok gmbr macey best jah
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:57:06): best kot dari egypt 
 kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:57:10): he2
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:20): hahahha
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:21): jahat.
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:23): memey la.
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:57:36): mg hilang g mane 2 3 hari nih
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:57:49): hbes org cari
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:51): heh.bakpo?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:52): hahha
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:54): cari?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:57:55): sapo cari?
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:58:08): farah cari mg
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:58:14): sepul cari jugok
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:58:22): adek dio buleh g mesir
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:58:29): owwh. yo ko..
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:58:32): mg delete fb kO?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:58:33): adek sapo nih?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:58:35): adek farah?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:58:38): ado2.
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:58:42): adek sepu
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:59:00): oowh.
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:59:05): laki ko puey?
ena :) (6/2/2010 19:59:09): bilo dio daftar masuk?
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 19:59:16): xingt la pulok

.......borak dan borak lg....


kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:00:37): mg balik cuti rayo ni lamo ko?
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:00:46): ak blk 10hari jah
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:00:57): sedeh gk r
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:01:04): hu2
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:01:08): heh? 10 hari jah?
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:01:09): waaa.
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:01:14): mahal dop tiket.?
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:01:46): \heheh
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:01:52): mahal
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:02:12): hok pakage ni
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:02:17): sbb tu ak blk meta
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:02:23): pakej 10hari jah
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:02:49): mg nk gapo dr jepun??
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:03:00): heh
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:03:04): hahaha
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:03:14): aaa~gapo best?
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:03:21): tahun ni jah kot ak blk
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:03:24): tahun dpn xblk kot
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:03:28): nk g derat
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:03:29): he2
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:04:09): haha
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:11): klu cukup duit
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:24): ak nk wat balik fggtftfja ko ain
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:27): fgtrhfyf ko ala
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:42): nk beli wii nk wat maen budak2 ni
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:48): ha2
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:04:49): waaa..
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:04:50): kayo dok aku??
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:07:16): hahha. ak nak.. fgtggftyhs.
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:09:33): ak save duit loni.
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:09:40): pakat doh nk g jepun nga abah nati
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:09:41): hehe
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:10:13): oo. okayh. nati ak try usha.
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:10:16): bereh2. nk mr jepun?
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:10:23): bkn tahun ni dop
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:10:43): oowh.
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:10:50): nati min graduate lah
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:12:01): oo ok2
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:12:23): ok min.
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:12:24): thanxs.
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:13:48): oo orite2
kimiE!! (6/2/2010 20:13:54): gambatte xam
ena :) (6/2/2010 20:14:03): okayh!tq!


ape yg best ade sibs pegi jaoh2 jugak?
dorang mst tny "nak ape dr sini?" .
yess! ak ssuka soklan tu. haha~ .
then i'll list everyhting. heehee. ;D


*mcm nie kene activte fb. kakak2. abang2 smua mau bising. adeyh, tula kdekut kedit nk msj ak kat sini haa. nk jugak msj2 kat fb ja. adeyh.*


uish. mcm2 kimie nk bwk balik dr jepun. kakti pon dr scotland. aaa~ ak? ak camne?
alah. mst konfem xde org berminat pon nk slongkar beg ak nnt ak smpai ni. ceyh. memilih!!
mentang2 dorang bwk blk benda2 best..

tiap2 taon nk blk ak tny " nak gapo2 dr egypt?"
1st skali dorang akn jwb " jgn wat blk mknn2 pelik egypt sudah. mmbazir"
pastu dorang akn ckp "egypt ad gapo? hahahaha"
ceyh. kurang asam an dorang. huh. *xpe. save duet ak.heh* . wekk ;p


 parcel 10kg dh smpai. doa termakbul. alhamdulillah. even parcel tu supposenye ak dpt bln 2. dpt bln 6 pon jd lah. xde ape yg rosak.hurm.,sib bek abah xsmpat pos satu lg parcel. ssuka2!! =) .  arini murah rezeki. *alhamdulillah* lagi. syukur.syukur, niza mmg baik. ak request kuah kacang arini. dapat plak. waa~ niza kau best! sserius! ;)



ape name..emm., snickers oren.ssedap kan?! lalala~

 bukan gmbr hiasan.

mood :: tembikai lagi separuh utk esok. yeay. ;) heehee.
music ::

~lysergdiethel®~

bullets and chocholates.

16.02 p.m :: hey!!! :-s

 

" smua org makin besar makin pelik " <-- someone said this to me. setuju!. even ak pon.kot. ahaa~ . some things are better left unsaid? but this will surely hurt you more. rite??! hang in there kawan.!.ape pon mslh anda. sy xtahu. + xphm., but if u feels like telling someone. i'm here for you =) . anytime kayh. 


sometimes stupid things complicate our simple life. -_- . don't just kept descending. get a grip!! u're strong girl. i know :) .




mood ::
music ::







~lysergdiethel®~

twitter.

11.20 a.m :: stelah menulis kat semua tmpat yg bole ak tulis. ahaa.


twitter-ing pon ssh gak an. kecik camtu pon org bole bace. adeyh.silly me.

mlm nie ke sinai. yosh!

ousmet ku ke carrefour tp xbeli pape. nice~ *naseb abek xikot.* haha. last2 kami ke fathalla arini.

arini saket2 sendi dan otot. mengapekah? bnyk sngt ke effort gune maen boling stakat masuk longkang je lebih? nasib baek ade sifu dua org yg terer. ahaa~


mahu ke umah nena. tp nmpk gaye. ramai yg koma. maka. postpone bole? hoho.
umah kak nadia plak bile na? aaaa..alamak. adeyh!


sinai mgkin sejuk. ohh tidak. ;((


mood :: troublemaker.
music :: lifehouse - had enough







~lysergdiethel®~

lagi?

03.50 am :: another insomnia. another nite.


a lots of fun.
someone wasnt there to share. ;(

betol. nana. dah 20. enjoy ur 20 =). dah tua. bagus. ahaa.

skali lg coffe~ another celebrations
happy birthday nana :)

bila mahu ke rumah kak nadia?alamak?!
nak pegi. nak pegi. *ssory sy slalu mcm nie*

sy xyakin sy mmpu berlari2 mengejar bola esok bersama rakan2.
but i'll try my best!!
kalau anda2 sekalian baek ati. sila call sy sejam sbelom pkl 8. which mean kol 7pg la.
hehe.


hurm..esok maulidur rasul kol 5.30 d asrama.





mood :: startsruck?! :)
music :: snowpatrol -run







~lysergdiethel®~

gagaga~

9.25p.m :: emm., tiba2 rasa sseuatu.

jeng2.



--> rse xngantuk nih .silap plak g tido ptg td. gagaga~



crita d sebalik *gagaga~* <-- bak kata bell ak cam org asli sebut camtu. haha~

adek ak suka lady gaga. so ak sebut. *nie baru tls. xdgr ak sebut live lg.haha* remind me of her. bole?hehe. kakak yg baek kan? taw dah. lalala~

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lol. anda2 sekalian. sy jd pelik lg ka? ade entry2 berunsur pelik ka? haha~ abaikan2. xnak jd pelik cam last year lg *segan la* . stendet la tu entry emo sbulan skali. jgn suspicious ngan sy. sy waras. sy okay :D .

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banyk sngt cite ssh gak. xde cite ssh gak. ttb sy TERbuat org rs bersalah. ke? okay xcite dh pasni.
kawan sy *perempuan* --> sy ad buat anda sakit kah? indirectly kan? gagaga~ ssory >.< !!

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emm., sy rs simpati utk sy. PBL xpenah dpt A. tp sy maen jugak. tahniah. -_-


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ad tetamu d sini. sila bergembira.^^

namood ::
music ::







~lysergdiethel®~

tun teja aida zainuddin.

12.46 p.m :: birthday wish. delay bbrape jam. maaf la. hee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY bur aida zainuddin.
15 feb.
student number :: 116 .
ahli lama dan baru section 3 gr D.
name glemer laen :: mcye. dedey. dey.

steps mngenali aida. ::

1 -kat ikip. ak ingt si gadis nie garang. muka dia serious kot. takot gak nk tego.

2 - kat hostel 1st year - ak rase si gadis ni cool. suke tgk movie ngan tido. tp result gempak gak. *tgk movie mst mate bengkak. menjiwai sunggoh anda* :p

3- 2nd year - ak rase gadis ni mistik. + obsess ngan oren. OBSESS!

4 - 2nd year jugak - ak rase gadis ni xbape nk betol kot. suka gile jun *poyo* . no hard feeling kayh. ;p

5 - 3rd year - ak rase si gadis nih best!! suke2!!~glad that i'm on her friend list =)

things that remind me of her ::

1.oren.
2.dolphin
3.jun poyo =p
4.mee bandung
5.si xmatured
6.patung mstik *mcm a**p tuh* . gagaga~
7.chesco!chesco.
8. mekti *rumet setia sejak turun temurun*

have a nice day dear^^ =)




mood ::
music ::







~lysergdiethel®~

macam-macam.

6:13p.m :: emm.,



ape nk ckp eh? ptg td cam bnyk je nk tulis. ttbe blurr plak kot. adeyh. haa~ . best td shopping ngan kawan sy. lame xjmpe kan. rndu la ~~ ;p . n OREO. ;) . nice~ . sbb utk dpt oreo. kene sacrifice kan satu botol jem. gagaga~ *bolox la awok* . next time kite shopping lg. cr jem lam botol plastik lah. ahaa~ =))

papita utk semua!! haha. papita je la. ak plh papita la. sbb lam bnyk2 kat ats rak tu. yg tu plg kalerful skali. hee~ ssory la. stadi baik2 semua. jgn nakal2. jgn asyek on9 je~ *biar tenet ak laju* . ;p .


aaa..rase mcm . hey.,i'm a good listener. kan? kan? fokus x ak td? gagaga~ . kene fokus. utk mngelakkan sbarang gangguan talian dan bunyi. kalau x nnt. instead of ak dgr cite. ak dgr nie *xde ape lah* . penat dh dgr tu ;p . dh kene paksa2 br nk ckp. degil! . haha~ tp. hurm. nice kot. tp. tp. sbb ade part ak gak an. so ak xbole nk respond sgt lah. emm.,camtu laa *gaya pasrah* . lol~ . ye. i'm okay!!! kau okay?! ;p


parcel xsmpai kite balik mesia jom?!

4papers left. mcm xcaye lak. cepat2 la abes. para bnyk kot nk kene bace. shari je gap. so jgn la gediks nk bersukaria sgt kayh?!

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another story :: org2 yg pelik. bukan tentang saya.

-org dh bg tu. why not kau appreciate je.? thanxs will do. senyum pon xpe kot.hekeleh.

-u can be a good listener and sarcastic at da same time o_O? pilih org plak tu. how come??!

-the only way to end ur problems is to stop to create a new one.bole??

- yang slow ttp slow. *xberniat ape2* . tp slow itu cool. like it that way. teruskan slow anda. no worries. ade gaye lah. ahaks ;p.

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emm., ntah. ak xtaw lah.

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rindu buah ati 2 org ni lah :((
*tom n jerry*

mood :: lady gaga - bad romance. (waaa ;(( . nice gile my sibs nyanyi tuk ak. gagaga~ nak balik!!) . u guys rock la. nnt kt karokae sumbang lg lam kete. hoho.
music ::







~lysergdiethel®~

windows 7?!

6.58 p.m :: terima kasih anda^^ .

satu - laptop dh siap format. ade org sudi tolong ak. ak mmg ske mnyusahkan org. org slalu dpt ssh sbb ak. tp sbb kau dh tolong ak. thanxs bnyaaak!!!!! sbb time2 exam nie. cam xbest plak an. emm.,

dua - waaa. windows 7 eh? ak nih kolot ke. 1st time dgr . hahah. reaksi kau tu. mcm la ak nih br kluar gua kan. kejam2!! 7 pon 7 lah. asalkan laptop ak xde mati2 suicide lg. xsuke lah.

tiga - laptop ku. dah pantas. . yeay~~~~ (^_^)

empat - kenyang!!sugar overdose.ouh.tidak!

lima - sape kate bell xpndai buat kek? hee~ ssedap kek bell =)

enam - jgn bolox lg depan org. malu la. jage enset betol2.

tujuh -  owh. ade memory card nie. yela. ak jage la. risau sngt kot ilang. even dye kecik. xpe2. pas siap gune nnt ak smpan lam beg teros. no worries. insyaAllah xilang. emm., kot. ahaaa~

lapan - jgn tido bnyk sngt ena!

sembilan - rindu kau lah?! ;p

sepuluh - okay nie je la~   ^_~




mood :: ngantuk!siyes.
music ::







~lysergdiethel®~

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mood ::
music ::







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